[my] everlasting scars..

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me



I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help, somehow, somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

God!

Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my...
Put me out of my fucking misery!

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the sun shining in my eyes
I said "Hello" but you kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the freeway
The last time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear you with your voice ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always too far away

The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't see you with the smoke getting in my eyes
I said "Hello" but kept on walking
I'm going deaf from the sound of the DJ
The first time I saw you, you turned away
I couldn't hear you with the noise ringing in my ears
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always too far away

I don't, don't want to take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

The next time I'll see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me I'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always too far away

I don't, don't want to take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

I don't, don't want to take you home
Please don't, don't make me sleep alone
If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
If you would stay with me a while

Der Morgen dämmert leise
Ich klopfe viermal an die Tür
Meine Finger umschließen sanft die Klinke
Ich kann doch nichts dafür

Ich setzte meinen Fuß ins Zimmer
Und schleich' mich an das Bett heran
Dort liegt sie zwischen zerwühlten Laken
Und fleht mich mit geschloss'nen Augen an:

Spül' mir den Mund mit Seifenwasser aus
Streue meine Asche in ein kleines Schneckenhaus
Nimm' meine Hände und hacke sie mir ab
Bedecke mit Vergissmeinnicht und Kornblumen mein Grab

Am Tag als ich geboren ward verbrannten die Weltmeere
Der Racheengel Heere
Entstiegen schwarzem Sand
Ich schneid' Dir meinen Namen ins Gesicht
Ein Datum, dass Du nie vergisst
An jenem Tag flogen die ersten Motten lebend aus dem Licht

Gleich neben ihr schläft friedlich
Eine bleiche Gestalt
Mit Augen schmal wie Mandeln;
Bei ihrem Anblick wird mir kalt
Der Körper ist von Narben und Brandmalen bedeckt
Das Etwas hat die Arme um das Mädchen gestreckt

Meine Gedanken dieser Mensch hat sie gedacht
Über fast ein ganzes Jahr hinweg gewährte ich ihm Macht
Über mich und mein Leben
Was hätte ich gegeben
Um mich eine Stunde lang nur über mich selbst zu erheben

Dort liegt mein Körper, meine Liebe, meine Seele;
Sie allein ist es, die ich mit meinen Worten immer wieder quäle
Wie besessen stürz' ich blindlings in den Wahn:
Was haben wir uns Gott verdamme mich, nur angetan?

Nimm' seine Zunge
Und schneide sie ihm ab
Bereue seine Sünden
Leg' ihn zu ihr in das Grab

Leg' Dich zu ihr in das Grab

Wach' endlich auf und kämpfe
Mit dem Rücken an der Wand
Schlage ich noch fester zu
Mit meinen Zähnen in der Hand
Auf mich wartet schon die Hölle
Ich kann Dir niemals verzeih' n
Mit dem letzten Atemzug
Will ich Dir Hass entgegenspei'n

Wach' endlich auf und kämpfe
Mit dem Rücken an der Wand
Schlag' ich fester auf Dich ein
Mit meinen Zähnen in der Hand
Meine Wut ist unersättlich
Heute werden wir' s beenden
Ich hör' nicht auf, bevor ich hab' was ich will:
Deine Zähne in den Händen

An meinen eig'nen Regeln hab' ich meine Schuld zu messen
Vor lauter Zorn in mir hab' ich die ganze Zeit vergessen:

Sprichst Du von mir so meinst Du Dich
Der Weg zu Dir führt über mich

All das Unrecht beging ich um, einsam und allein
Zum Schluß mit meinem größten Feind
- Mit mir selbst konfrontiert zu sein

Die Zeit ist abgelaufen, Deine Willkür währte lang
Will ich weitergeh'n, verlangt das Leben Deinen Niedergang
Der morgen dämmert leise
Dieses Ende gehört mir
Von draußen drischt der Tod mit meinen Fäusten an die Tür

Werd mit dir spielen, keiner von vielen,
zieh ich an Fäden, führe dich vor.
Ich lass dich gehen, stehen und drehen,
ich bin der Spieler, du bist der Tor.

Deine Versprechen, werde ich brechen,
all deine Eide schwörst du auf mich.
Närrische Fragen lass ich dich sagen,
ich bin der Zweifel, der dich beschlich.

Du kannst mir nicht widerstehn,
an meinen Fäden sollst du gehn!
Ganz wie ich will, wird es geschehn!

Ich lass dich leiden, werde mich weiden,
an deiner Sehnsucht, an deiner Lust.
Schlag Kopf und Hände wild gegen Wände,
ich bin die Hoffnung, die du vertust.

Du kannst mir nicht widerstehn,
an meinen Fäden sollst du gehn!
Ganz wie ich will, wird es geschehn!

Du kannst dich winden, betteln und auch flehn,
an meinen Fäden, sollst du dich drehn!

Du kannst mir nicht widerstehn,
an meinen Fäden sollst du gehn!
Ganz wie ich will, wird es geschehn!

You are on fire, out of control
No destination, unsure of where to go
You are a viper, waiting to attack
You show no mercy, you believe there's no turning back

Someone told you long ago, to give it up, to let it go
They were wrong, they didn't know
The dream inside could never die
As long as your heart still beats
You are alive

All I wanted was for you to look inside
Who killed the dream in your heart?
And made you sigh and die?
All I wanted was to show you are alive
Find the love in your heart
and bring it back to life
Show you are alive

What will it take to make you believe?
That you could change this?
You can take back your dream
I saw the others run out of time
You will forget the burdens
With hands lifted high

As long as your heart still beats
You are alive

All I wanted was for you to look inside
Who killed the dream in your heart?
And made you sigh and die?
All I wanted was to show you are alive
Find the love in your heart and bring it back to life
Show you are alive

Hands lifted high
Our hearts believe that we are alive
Hands lifted high
Our hearts believe that we are alive

All I wanted was for you to look inside
Who killed the dream in your heart?
And made you sigh and die?
All I wanted was to show you are alive
Find the love in your heart and bring it back to life
Show you are alive

Show you are alive
I will show you are alive

Border line
Dead inside
I don't mind
Falling to pieces
Count me in, violent
Let's begin feeding the sickness
How do I simplify?
Dislocate the enemy's on the way

Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight

Full of fear
Ever clear
I'll be here fighting forever
Curious, venomous
You'll find me
Climbing to heaven
Never mind turn back time
You'll be fine
I will get left behind

Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight

Holding on too tight
Breathe the breath of life
So I can leave this world behind

It only hurts just once
They're only broken bones
Hide the hate inside

Oh
(Forever, one I'll be fine)

Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white
So I can leave this world tonight

Holding on too tight
Breathe the breath of life
So I can leave this world behind

Do we make sense, I think we do
In spite of everything that we've been through
Oh and you say black and I say white
It's not about who's wrong
As long as it feels right
Don't think those stars won't align

Under your scars I pray
You're like a shooting star in the rain
You're everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you'd only let me live inside your mind
Live inside your mind

Wish you were here
Right beside me
So I could watch you sleep
Hold you body closer, breathe you deep
And everything feels broken
When you're not next to me
Would you still be you
If we weren't we

Under your scars I pray
You're like a shooting star in the rain
You're everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you'd only let me live inside your mind

So hey, if you feel like coming down
If you feel like coming around
Just call my name out loud, na, na, na
Hey, if you feel like coming down
If you feel like coming around
Just call my name out loud, na, na, na, yeah

Under your scars I pray
You're like a shooting star in the rain
You're everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you'd only let me live inside your mind
Live inside your mind

The sun comes up
I think about you

The coffee cup
I think about you

I want you so
It's like i'm losing my mind.
The morning ends
I think about you

I talk to friends
I think about you

And do they know? it's like i'm losing my mind.

All afternoon
Doing every little chore

The thought of you stays bright.
Sometimes i stand in the middle of the floor

Not going left
Not going right.

I dim the lights and think about you

Spend sleepless nights to think about you.
You said you loved me
Or were you just being kind?
Or am i losing
Losing my mind?

All afternoon
Doing every little chore

The thought of you stays bright.
Sometimes i stand in the middle of the floor

Not going left
Not going right.

Or am i losing my mind?
You said you loved me
Or were you just being kind?
Or am i losing my mind?
Or were you just being kind?
Or am i losing my mind?
Losing my mind
Losing my mind
Losing my mind.

Baby I'm sick inside
I'm definitely out of my mind
I know there's something not quite right
Disconnect, system override

You're so brave from your side of the glass
And you, you can't compute, you can't do the math
And you're, you're playing god with your remote control
But I already know that there's a flaw in my code and the
The truth is you silently study me
And there are consequences that you cannot see
And you ask yourself how did I unplug
But the simple truth is that I just don't give a fuck

I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Baby I don't care
Baby I don't care
Oh I don't care
No I don't
You say you're the cure
But I smell your disease
I've figured you out
Like a rat in a cage

So come in tie me down try and reprogram me
Please run your tests tell me how I am malfunctioning
You cut me up sew me back together one more time
I'm not in sync, data breach can't bring me back online
You start to panic when you realize you try to
Shut me down when you look in my eyes no matter
How you try and rewire me
Or psychoanalyze my psychology

I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Baby I don't care
Baby I don't care
Oh I don't care
No I don't
You say you're the cure
But I smell your disease
I've figured you out
Like a rat in a cage

You put away all your needles and knives
Tell me do you feel satisfied
Did you get what you came here for
I can tell you still want more

Did you get everything you need
Are you finished watching me bleed
Did you think you could just walk away
Did you think I'd just let you leave

Maybe you didn't think I would know
Maybe you didn't think I would see
Cause I'll never give what you want
I learned the truth a long time ago
I would die before I

Baby I don't care
Baby I don't care
Baby I don't care
Oh I don't care
Baby I don't care
Don't tell me you're pure
As you spread like a plague
I've figured it out
You're the rat
Baby I don't care
Baby I don't care
Don't tell me you're pure
As you spread like a plague
I've figured it out
You're the rat, rat in the cage

You're the rat in the cage

I thank you for all the lives you've led
I thank you for every word you said
I thank you for walking away
I thank you for the promises you broke
For always watching, watching while I choke
I thank you for teaching me
Yes, I thank you for your hurting

I bite down a little harder
My blade's a little sharper
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
Strike back a little harder
I scream a little louder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
I'm stronger than I ever knew
I'm strong because of you
I hit back a little louder
Fuck you a little harder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow


I thank you for the hole you dug in me
Filled it with cement, sunk me in your sea
Thank you for being so obscene
I thank you for never facing me
Swimming in the mud, never coming clean
I thank you for nothing in between
Yes, I thank you for leaving

I bite down a little harder
My blade's a little sharper
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
Strike back a little harder
I scream a little louder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
I'm stronger than I ever knew
I'm strong because of you
I hit back a little louder
Fuck you a little harder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow

You wanna know why I like the pain you say
There's some sick part of me thankful for the hate
I stay positive and I push forward ya see
I gotta do the right thing for my family
So I smile and say that the world is just fine
As these fucking parasites eat up my spine
So I ask you once and I ask you again
Where do your roots start and where do your roots end

I bite down a little harder
My blade's a little sharper
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
Strike back a little harder
I scream a little louder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
I'm stronger than I ever knew
I'm strong because of you
I hit back a little louder
Fuck you a little harder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow

I'm stronger than I ever knew
I'm strong because of you
I hit back a little louder
Fuck you a little harder
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow
My roots, my roots run deep into the hollow